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2003-03-03 - 3:33 p.m.

Since highschool, I've always waited for this day. I kept thinking what greatness this day can bring. This is my favorite date, because of my favorite number, 3. My fondness to this date has grown into an obsession. I even thought of getting married to this date! Because I really, really wanted this day to be special.

But now that it has come, it only brought me pain. This day can offer me nothing Nothing but depression. Depression, frustration from being away from you. There's no way that we can be together today. And I don't have to repeat it over and over to myself. Just when I thought this day can be magical... it had left me powerless... no power to make other choices.

The only choice that's left for me is to keep you alive in my mind. If this day would really be special, it would be special because of your presence. If I can only spend today with you...

Then I kept thinking of how we will spend this day together, how wide my smile can get at the first sight of you, how long and how passionate we can hug and kiss all day long... and how deep the pleasure can be from being with you.

But, before I do spend this day full of frustration, a thought has squeezed into my consciousness... I AM WITH YOU! All I thought for today is you. And if I keep thinking of you until this day ends, you will remain with me. Your presence will remain in me, and just like you always say, you're always here with me, holding my hand, never leaving. I can make it happen after all! For what seemed to be powerless, your thought brought out the power of this day, the power I have always expected. So, until tomorrow, I will be drowned by your burning presence, fired by my pure thoughts of you.